| cant take it.
round and around we go.
the thoughts. the chills.
im running. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| wow. i just wrote a whole essay for the SAT on the "value of choice". hooollyyy abraham that was fun.
~its how you live and deal with your experiences that makes you grow~
growing up fuckin sucks. whoever said it was fun should be shot.
ok. i lied. it has its huge ups too. but the many MANY downs seem to override the ups. they still should be shot.
loving you | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| wow. i had the most...interesting/scary/heartstopping day yesterday...
i almost got arrested. then.
i almost got shot. by someone, who probably had a gun with them.
and the water polo tournament. was. incredibly tiring. 2 games in a row, then rest for 1 hour, then another game. chriiistt...after not being in the pool for 4 weeks~....it was somewhat of a shockerr.
okie dokie~
dinner time.
<3<3 | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| what an amazing night of writing~
i haven't written that much ever since...in a loong long time. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 12:15 pm | | Current Mood: |  hopeful |
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| when you sit here you think, "what can i write to express everything in my head"
nothing. anything.
chills.up.the.back.wow.
i dream of someday understanding why. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| i lay there in bed, but sleep does not overcome me. instead its all in my head, i lay there in my bed, tryin to keep you out of my head.
i cannot sleep.
i cannot stop thinking about a dream that came true.
a life worth living. a love worth loving. a girl worth a heart.
you are keeping me awake.
let me go to sleep.
groovy.
somehow you do it. why. why.
i love the rain, cloudy windows, johnny depp, the snow, being close and warm, and you.
~the greatest love of all, is the one that does not hurt, the one that does not weaken or falter, the one that goes on forever~ | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | When the beating of the Heart matches the Beating ofthe Drum | | Subject: | a burning sensation | | Time: | 10:14 am | | Current Mood: |  giddy |
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| WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY????
late night conversations~
future life plans~
goals and aspirations~
love
china makes me sad,
bush makes me mad,
but in the end i am glad,
because this year i wasn't bad. ;)
merry christmas to all of you,
the new year comes frightfully fast,
choose what you want to hold dear from the past,
but in the end we all start anew.
I love dreams. especially when they come true.
2 weeks has gone by~ 3 movies~ MANY HOURS~ a couple dinners~ several LATE night calls~ 2 tests~ 0 pictures~ a couple roses~ 1 cat~ 1 bruise~ too many painful goodbye's~ amazing~ incroyable~ je t'adore | | comments: 11 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | wisdom teeth | | Time: | 01:32 pm | | Current Mood: |  ...drugged...samething |
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| well this is a dayof bad.
last night couldn't eat anything. i had f*ing MADDDDD CRAVINGSSSS though.
this morning i wake up and take a pill. go to the doctors, and lie down in a chair, they stick a needle in me. then i lay my head back. then a (good looking) nurse says breathe, it's only air.....
1hour later.
i wake up in a room w/ my mom and a nurse....end transmission
i have no idea how i got into the car to go home, or how i got from the car to the couch. 4 hours later i wake up on my couch. i guess my mom had made me swallow a pill already.....wtf.....when i wasn't awake????....w.e. i just dont remember.
thank god i remember last night tho. thANK YOU GOD. i'd've been pissed if i couldn't remember anything i'd done in the last 24 hours. PISSED.
wow~everyone, maybe you are all used to it by now. but im not. that beautiful 5'2'' girl, is my girlfriend. and it amazes me EVERYTIME i think about it.
thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou.
(hmmm....you have no idea how hard it is to write like that^^^^^when your eyes are doing loop-d-loops, and you can't see your fingers)
ok. time to go A.W.O.L. again. i think i shall be unconscious. good nite. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| well.
i know you all have been waiting for this day, for quite a while now.
it happened.
today was the perfect beginning to something that has developed for QUITEeee the while.
for all those who helped me~ thank you from the bottom of my heart
STEROID ROSES!!!!
and. i am drained of every drop of energy. and for some reason i am not tired at all.
god. you know what~~~you~~~like those roses, are simply beautiful. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| hm. never going to get homework done. but thats ok. i have alllLLLLL night.
i think someone else said it best~
omg, that book meant sooooo much to me keith. i wish you had taken longer to find it. or i had gotten lost. what will i do with you. you are driving me crazy. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| yeah.
sleep?
who needs it?
you don't need sleep. you don't need sleep. (just keep repeating this)
~thanks keith for the Street Car named Desire book back~ i really reallllyyyyyyyy needed it.
yeah. well. french class man? poetry? rhyming? i don't thinkkk soooooo!
mmm, i love the romance language
haha | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | people love COUNTRY because it tells a story!!! | | Subject: | mumbo JUmbo | | Time: | 09:40 pm | | Current Mood: |  content |
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| hmmm.
Low and behold...this weekend was amazing and
amazingly unfinished. its not over. WHO VOTES FOR A COUPLE of 3 DAY weekends
underminecBdemandthecancellationofFINALS!!!!???
Rooty tootyy, DDon't jive me baby! OoH dont jive me like that!
eh thats groovy baby, just groovy...
NEVERNEVERLAND!!(johnnydepp.srythisissorandom)!!
,
I was amazed, does anyone just sit down in silence, and listen??????????You
can hear an amazing amount in pure silence. can't you?
ama mia!!! water polo is hard again.
no Way! school. is. difficult.
tisk tisk, finals. are. soon.
grades. are. goingtodrop.
eh, my life==== well, hmmmm, lets see, it is as crazy as being in a pool in
the FREEEZZZZING weather.... lol, almost texactly like that!!!!!!! yeah owell.
Yooo! duude, i really couldn't have said it better myself!!!!!
Open mic nite was sick/ill/chill/hot/tight
u loooserrrs who stood outside are f*ing geeks...haha, damnit. damnit.
ooo~the stand-up was pretty f*ing funny, so was Ritter's monologe30dayorgasm,
unbelievable :)
titilating
occupationalhazard
forshadowinganimpendingdoom
my my, i think i should stop filling up space and do something productive
yo tango chocolate
mmmm
iunno, maybe not
neverrrr give innnnnn
DAMNIT< FINE I"LL GIVE IN. *for the record*-ilastedasolid2hoursnotdoingwork :)
i apologize, this was extremely random. (it took alot of time, and i think that's why i did it) hmmm..
~~~i mean everyword of it~~~~ | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| well. 1 year almost 5 months. thats it.
we are on an official break. no calls, no seeing eachother, no nothin for a while.
this may confuse many of you who know we have been on a break already for a lil while. this is true, we were on a break. We were on a break because her friend's jealousy was threatening me, and karen didn't want to risk my saftey. therefore, we went on the break, but the love was still there, and we still talked to eachother regularly.
now. we are on a break because of eh. iunno why you go on breaks. partially cause you get tired of the person, sometimes the love is gone, the flame slowly dieing. i do not know. but we are on one.
and wow. already im going on a date this next weekend....
my dad had a girlfriend from 8th grade- until 2nd year of college. the same girl. my mom was his second girlfriend. WOWZAAA. chriiisssst.
anywayz,
we are seperated for the time being,
and im goin on a date
and im single.
and regardless of how "good" things are looking right now, im in a world of hurt like no other. like. no. other. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| well, hmmm. christ i haven't written in here for a LONGG time.
updates:
water polo season was great~ 3 wins. 22 goals. avg 2 per game. winter polo starts soon!!
school~ ehh, feelin the f*ing pressure, ya know? but pushin through it.
right now~ feelin like i need to throw up.
and now.
what you have all been waitin for.
the girl situation.
right now for the past while, karen and i have been on a break. its a "big" thing, because we are on the break because one of her friends (who likes her alot) did some threatening stuff towards me, so here we are on a break. thanks friend...
and, as much as i dislike seeing this in people's entries, i must say. there is drama in my life at the moment. seriously though, i hate drama. honestly its the biggest turn off i've ever experienced, BIGGESTT HUGGGGESTTTT. it was goin so well, and then this f*ing drama. the drama is~ karen believes that her and her friends relationship is TOOOOO close (they've been through alot), and she is forgiving him for telling A LOT of people that i beat her. he did this in an attempt to obviously get me away from her.
anywhoo~please truly tell me if this is asking too much (seriiously tell me)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~all i want to know is~ would you let someone back into your life if they threatened to physically harm someone you loved dearly?
so.
at the moment.
i am feeling very sick.
my stomach is moving around.
my nose is so STUFFY
and my toes are extremely cold for some reason.
well~ that is all.
almost all.
there is a lovely sparkle, or fire, in my sometimes monotonous days... :)
lol, i'll be around... | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| so much has happened. hmm....where to start.
welll 1st things first, water polo= best sport alive? best sport ever. im el capitaine of le guys team, and i must say it is amazing in that pool. thus far i have lost 7 pounds, then gained 10....splendid.
well, then, oo yeah school. fuck school forever. nEEExXXXT
hmm, girls. well there is only one
EURO TRIP= OFFF THE SHIZZLEEE....o man, ok ok, so here is the catch, we can drink....only infront of Mrs. Gallagher, soooooo.....hmm....whose up for gettin hammered WHILE BEING SupERVISED!!!!!!!!
wow, my jaw lately has been KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLing me. its like its soooooo paiiinfull...honestly, no idea what was causing it, until my dad said that it was most likely....me grinding my teeth at night, because he said, "your thoughts are different at night and at day, during the night, anything bothering your subconcious consumes your mind, thus i grind my teeth." very well explained. it hurts.
hmm, to sam~ hiking rules, hope to go up to el Tahoe for some Climbin
to lauren~ whasss crackin, we gotta chill sometime, cuz this is juss all f*ed up in the SHEEEEEZZZyy
to all el franco's in francais class~ tell me when i become f*in obnoxious
to all el polo players~ mannn, we are some of the elite athletes in EL WORLD
to mr. meegan~ wtf, AMERICA RULES, no matter how many shitty things you can make it sound like we've done....if you don't like the fuckin country and how it was built, please exit to your RIGHT
my hair=very long, almost too long for my dad.
welll mucho grande love and im ouuttt | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| yeah so i guess my dad went yesterday and had dinner with my grandma..his mom....and they were chattin and stuff about the last family reunion up at tahoe.
and i guess my dad offered her my sisters picture as well as my own picture. she takes my sisters picture...and my dad says, well here is stewarts picture if you would like it.
and she is like, no thank you, i don't like his hair like that, so she is keeping the picture from like 9th grade with my hair short. wtf.
even my dad was like damnnn....i mean he had long hair in college...DAMNIT
lol
anywhoo...it doesn't really bother me, but its just interesting to notice.
yay, school tomorow......fuck me. with a rubber spoon | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| you are such a temptation
such a cutE, staring up at me
to hold you is great
to see u at a distance is wonderful
but...
to look into your eyes is just f*ing heart-stopping
if this was easier i would be all over it,
but love is just fucking so strong.
(i apologize for the SSHAATTTTTTYYYY somewhat homosexual writing (or bROKEN, as maggie would want it said), but hey, its juss rollin through my mind) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| :( it has ended. officially tomorow will be the first day of school.
fuuuck that. vacation is so much nicer, its like a dream. and by going to school we are forced back into a brutal reality in which little letters determine a great part of our future.
o well. its on.
bring on the fuckin 11th grade. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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